| | I'm graduating in 2 days. 3 days? I'm not sure how to even count it anymore; if you count from the day you're on or only the days in between; i graduate friday and today is tuesday. well, actually, i graduate friday and sunday. i'm really sad, though, because i feel like there is so much i'm leaving behind and nothing left to go home to. i feel like everything is worn out back there; like trying to wear clothes from high school that still have some charm but they don't fit right anymore and they somehow look wrong outside of your memories. but i don't have much of a choice because i don't have much money, at least not to do the things i want to. at least i am going to japan; i would be more excited but i just can't envision it right now...which is funny, since I have been there before and all. i'm really excited to meet the japanese students, but i can't actually imagine it at the moment; or i should say i can't imagine it being a reality. i don't know.
but i'm tired of wanting common things; i'm tired of wanting things that rely on circumstance. but can you really be different without being in isolation?
whatever. i think i am just depressed about getting a job. school has always been so easy; i've always had so much free time to divulge, but now i feel like i have to devote myself to something i couldn't possibly care about. i don't think there are really any jobs out there that i can get (at least momentarily) that i would actually enjoy; i'm at the point where i don't even really know what to look for.
ok, i'm uncertain, whatever, but it's late and i have my last final (perhaps forever) tomorrow, so I need to get as much sleep as possible.
Oh, btw; today was my last day of work, so that makes me sad because i like to assign high emotional value to things that don't necessarily call for it. |
| | Posted 6/9/2009 11:52 PM - 6 Views - 0 eProps - 0 comments
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