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| I hate her face, but enjoy the company.I'm graduating in 2 days. 3 days? I'm not sure how to even count it anymore; if you count from the day you're on or only the days in between; i graduate friday and today is tuesday. well, actually, i graduate friday and sunday. i'm really sad, though, because i feel like there is so much i'm leaving behind and nothing left to go home to. i feel like everything is worn out back there; like trying to wear clothes from high school that still have some charm but they don't fit right anymore and they somehow look wrong outside of your memories. but i don't have much of a choice because i don't have much money, at least not to do the things i want to. at least i am going to japan; i would be more excited but i just can't envision it right now...which is funny, since I have been there before and all. i'm really excited to meet the japanese students, but i can't actually imagine it at the moment; or i should say i can't imagine it being a reality. i don't know.
but i'm tired of wanting common things; i'm tired of wanting things that rely on circumstance. but can you really be different without being in isolation?
whatever. i think i am just depressed about getting a job. school has always been so easy; i've always had so much free time to divulge, but now i feel like i have to devote myself to something i couldn't possibly care about. i don't think there are really any jobs out there that i can get (at least momentarily) that i would actually enjoy; i'm at the point where i don't even really know what to look for.
ok, i'm uncertain, whatever, but it's late and i have my last final (perhaps forever) tomorrow, so I need to get as much sleep as possible.
Oh, btw; today was my last day of work, so that makes me sad because i like to assign high emotional value to things that don't necessarily call for it. | | |
| But ironically...Last week, I was getting ready to hang out with some friends when I realized that I had a paper due the next day. We had to write on the advisory content of a song, which I was interested in, so I wasn't too stressed about it. I wrote on the song "Symmetry", which is a duet between Mew and a 13-year-old girl (the song is 9 years old now). It's a really lovely song, and I chose it because I could write about the musical composition of it as well as the lyrics.
Now this week, the most random thing happened--the girl in the duet sent me a message on Facebook! I get messages occasionally from Mew fans for the group I'm in, so it wasn't out of nowhere, but it was definitely a surprise. I just thought it was a really funny coincidence, so I wanted to share it with the world. | | |
| but it's mah birfday, marshie...well, i'm super old now.
also, today i washed my hair with what may actually be margarita mix; Taco was following me around all the time trying to taste it. | | |
| orange county, stop being on fire!i've been looking at articles and photos of yorba linda frequently, and it is just a mess. it's so sad how one house catches on fire, and the next doesn't. but apparently, there have been a ton of people who stayed at their houses armed with garden hoses, spraying out embers that landed on their houses. talk about intense. seeing pictures of BOHS being burned is really sad; but apparently it didn't get hit as badly as brea canyon high school (but then, BCHS is really tiny). my mom told me yesterday that people were just going up on hills to watch the fire; she said you could always tell when it was a house that was burning. in a twisted way, i wanted to be there so i could see. here, all i have is ash. my grandparent's house is still in the necessary evacuation area; yorba linda is still a danger zone.
well, i don't really have much to say today, i guess. | | |
| not dying as muchSo awesomes! I'm finished (for now) with my hugemongous project that is due tomorrow. also, i had to say hugemongous because humongous is apparently spelled wrong here. So then i decided to look it up, but since i figured i was spelling it wrong, i looked up 'gargantuan' in the thesaurus instead, and it suggested both humongous and ginormous, which my inter-spellings is still telling me i've spelled wrong. it won't even suggest another word. but hugemongous is probably a better word anyways.
also, i can't be entirely sure, but i think i'm the only one in my apartment, and i think i have been the only one here for about 6 hours. i couldn't go anywhere because i needed to finish the hugemongous project. i've been so stressed out that i forgot to condition my hair, and i can't remember ever having forgotten that before.
on the plus side, if the other girls aren't in the apartment, that means that they are probably at work, which means they may be bringing me piles of hot dogs when they get here. seriously, that would be the best way to end the day; with a nice lovely hot dog. i don't think many people know this, but i am a sucker for a good hot dog. seriously, hot dogs can be so amazing. especially the ones they make at their work; also the ones i made at my work a few years ago (nathan's hot dogs...mmm...). oh, geez, now i can't think of anything but hot dogs, and if they don't bring me one back, i'll probably cry. you have no idea how many hot dogs they tell me that they have to throw away.
okay, i just checked on what i have to eat that can possibly fill the hot dog void, and i have nothing. i have wine coolers, i have yogurt, i have pitas and polenta; i ended up settling on some braunschweiger. and as much as i love the stuff, it just wasn't what i was looking for.
oh jeez, something made my hair wet and i don't know what.
well, it appears they aren't arriving with hot dogs anytime soon, so i guess i may as well go to sleep. i don't know where my roommate is. she told me she'd be back around 10, so i'm not worried, but i just don't know where she is.
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